Day 60 - Laurel Falls to Jenny Knob Shelter
18.8 miles
This has been three hard days, a particularly low time on the trail (seems like a common refrain).
I am feeling the strain of sick days and zeros on our mileage. I am tired of hiking. I am tired of the physicality of this adventure. I find the terrain uninspiring.
I am angry at @toesalad for bringing me out here but I'm upset also because I choose this.
This last stretch from Marion to Trent's Grocery, where we plan to stop tomorrow night, is the longest stretch we've been on the trail, without a town stop, due to Padawan's (@celine) sick zero day.
We've started going longer distances without water, 8 miles has been our longest stretch.
My parents are having a good time, which I'm very grateful for. Our immediate family quarrels seem petty, fighting over food, really?
Padawan has been low, Tenacious Bling as usual (which is to say a lot of our interactions are emotionally difficult), and Otter is easy going and happy.
The highlight for sure of the last three days has been Laurel Creek last night. How many Laurel Creek's are there on the trail? Will we find one again?
It was so beautiful and refreshing, yet in my pain and disappointment it was hard to appreciate, but I tried.
@toesalad and I have been having hard conversations. Lots of time for those. We know we are committed to each other but we're not sure we're committed to the same vision for our future. We want to walk the same path but the reality of that is hard!
I decided in these past few days that it's time to quit blogging and Facebook for the remainder of our hike. The demands of hiking and our video series are too much for me to continue blogging, and this feels like a huge loss for me. This will be the longest interruption to my writing flow and publishing for years. The writing is too difficult right now anyway, having all my pain and discomfort come to the surface. I need to be fully present for the work going on in my life right now. And a hard work it is.